Hi, I'm struggling in so many ways that I don't know where to start. I suspect lupus because I recently noticed that I am very sensitive to uv rays. Yesterday, I stood on the balcony for just 5 minutes and the butterfly rash on my face intensified and began peeling. I also started having chest pains, my heart was beating too fast and I was having trouble breathing. This happens every time I step into the sun. I constantly feel tired and suspect that lupus has been damaging my heart as it hurts and I have arrhythmia. I've been to the er three times this past week for everything I mentioned above. I suspect that I was on the verge of a heart attack during my second trip to the er. The doctors as well as my parents continue shrugging me off and basically telling me that I'm just stressed/ crazy. I feel pain in my kidneys too. I constantly have muscle spasms that never go away in my lower back. I know anxiety and confusion are normal with lupus but I honestly do feel afraid of dying from a heart attack or other complications. I seem to have a very aggressive form of lupus and no one will help. I feel very depressed and suicidal. I feel afraid to go to the doctor tomorrow for fear of being shrugged off once more. At times I think I'm going crazy and it's just inside my head but I know something is wrong.