Last updated: August 2021
Insomnia and night terrors can be the worst things to experience. Also, I suffer from sleep paralysis a lot. When I was a child, I would have the most horrific sleep paralysis to where when I finally was able to move, I would wake up crying. Ever since then I would have them more often and then wake up in sweat episodes and the shakes.
I never truly understood why I went through them but most of the time I felt like something was sitting on my chest for a while and I could not move my body. On the nights I am not having sleep paralysis I am suffering from night terrors and insomnia. This would have me being paranoid within my own house sometimes and I could not understand it. I battle with insomnia bad to where sometimes I would just do my classwork and articles at nighttime because I cannot go to sleep. Sometimes I would run off 3 hours of sleep.
Insomnia and lupus
Insomnia is a sleep disorder in which you have trouble falling and/or staying asleep. I mean another thing is, who does not have insomnia with a newborn? I think it is safe to say a lot of women might have this issue, especially being first-time moms. You cannot sleep because you always think that your child is crying, calling you, or you just want to make sure that they are alive.
My insomnia used to be chronic to where it would happen 3 times a week and when I go to the hospital would be the only time, I get any real sleep. Now it happens a little bit rarer now that I try natural holistic ways like teas and meditations of such. Taking a hot shower always helps and sometimes stay within the shower for at least 30 minutes I would insist. Luckily, I have time before my husband goes to work to take my time and enjoy myself. Sometimes we must learn that if you do not rest then your body will make you rest.
Childhood trauma and healing
With some things that I went through as a child I believe sometimes I suffered from PTSD, but I will not diagnose myself. I just always understood that my doctors would want me to speak to someone, but would never tell me the real reason behind it. The best thing to do, though, is to speak to someone. Why? Because holding that in can cause major problems for your health and we do not need any more of those problems.
I also looked up other people's stories and solutions to see what they have done to control it. I have not found any that I like per say but when I do find out I know that would be the best sleep I have ever had because it is wearing my body down. Sometimes I find myself falling asleep with trying to feed my daughter. Luckily, she has a little sarcasm with her personality, and she just laughs it right off. I hope I can find a better treatment soon.
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